Sideline Ho

I know that I've addressed this issue in previous blogs but for some reason this keeps sticking out in my mind. I guess because I've played both sides of this fence maybe, who knows with my busy mind.

I know that I've discussed cheating in a previous blog and my feelings are kind of mixed with that. I've been a 'relationship' where I was the other woman. For a while that was acceptable to me because I didn't want the bullshit the wifey went through I just wanted to have fun and do my thang.

On the opposite side of the fence my son's father and I were going through a rough time in our relationship and I couldn't or wouldn't give him what it was he needed as a man so therefore he stepped out and had a sideline ho. In my heart I knew but he refused to give me confirmation. I wasn't sure how much more confirmation I needed because he would lie about going to work, where his money went,  and why he didn't come home until the next day. I'm not stupid but I guess I was in denial. I had once read a text message this sideline ho sent discussing about buying him something. Of course I was furious, but I was hurt. So just like any other hood bitch would I brought her to her like 'don't buy my man shit whatever he needs I got him' blah blah blah. That was a fucking joke. As our relationship progressively got worse it resulted in him leaving and of course running straight to this home wrecking bitch. I was livid and heart broken so for a female like me to have all those mixed emotions, and I guess guilt was in there somewhere, it was not good. I went on a rampage and was determined to ruin both of their lives.

After almost a week of him being inconegro, not calling his son, it was pretty much fuck us, I ran into both of them at the store. I seen her first and then seen him trying to hide in the car. The funny thing was he never even seen me coming until I was repeatedly whipping his ass in the front seat of the car. She still didn't even know what was going on until she walks to her car and I flipping the fuck out. I let her know she was marked and once I had the opportunity to get her, I was gonna beat the shit out of her.I caused so much of a scene I knew police where coming so I left. About a week after this episode my son's father comes to my house and of course we wind up fucking. I guess I thought if I put it on him better then her he'd come home. He didn't he left to go get her from work and continued to play that with her, not me. I seen her parked across the street at my family's house and decided that I was going to have a conversation with her. I wanted her to know how I felt and what the situation between he and I really was. She claims he didn't tell her we were still together only that we still lived together. Fuck outta here bitch how fucking stupid are you?!?! The situation played out and she called herself being 'real' but still being a fucking liar. I expected it from him but damn I guess I thought I was gonna pull the female card and maybe she would sympathize with me and tell me the truth. I guessed wrong.

Situations like this are always tricky. You want to be happy but if a man/woman already has somebody and they are stepping out on them with you what makes you think they won't do it you? I never knew or care to know what it felt like being the one who was betrayed, but now that I know I won't do that to another. Its not fair to anybody involved. Some women like to play this position because it means they advance to what ever social or financial level they are looking for, but its not right. If I could tell all the women that I messed with their men I would. I would keep it 100% real because its fucked up the part I played and maybe that will help them to cut loose from the dogging ass men.Not all men or dogs but if you find one that isn't don't dog him out. Women are much liars then men so therefore the likeliness of a woman getting caught up on some humbug shit is not alot. Men on the other hand will lie and lie some more to cover the first lie but its not even believable. The point I'm trying to make is this: if you are unhappy at home TELL THEM, COMMUNICATE YOUR NEEDS AND FEELINGS! You can't expect some body's crystal ball to be functioning all the time. For all you sideline Ho's reformed or otherwise think about how that would make you feel.

Until next time....